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Quality: Gift of Wading Through Loss, Grief
There is a moment that always surprises me.
It can happen at any time I am in a moment of
Sheer joy
In moments dizzy with unassisted drunkenness
My physical body and
Spiritual body merge and
I am boundless as I move with the
Incremental tide of time soaking in
sight
aroma
sound
sensation
savory note!
Ecstatic exquisite elatedness can
Unexpectedly open a window or door to
Sadness or sorrow
I wanna call my Dad or
I wanna call my Mom or
another no longer with me on this plain
I instantaneously understand the lesson of a disagreement forgotten or
I am simply able to gaze unflinchingly at the fullness of life
holding the paradox of
my joy and my sadness or grief
my joy and the grief of others
now a marble cake mix
And
I swaddle all with my joyous elation for
All is bitter!
All is sweet!
All is Divine!
There is a moment that always surprises me.
It can happen at any time I am in a moment of
Surrender to the quarrel in my mind
Accepting what is so
Injustice
Sadness
Disappointment
New or old pain making itself known
In whatever fashion required
Water
No water
Screaming
Silence
Longing.
(I no longer go to numbness)
It
Moves and courses through me and
Ecstatic profound sadness can
Unexpectedly open a window or door to a
Spark of joy
My head lying in Aunt Edna’s lap
The bad joke or pun of someone I love – totally appropriate for the moment
The unmistakable aroma of my favorite comfort foods
The voice of the police officer saying “Are you lost, little girl?” to my four-year old self because I was lost…
I am simply able to gaze unflinchingly at the fullness of life
holding the paradox of
my sadness or grief and my joy
my grief and the joy of others
now a marble cake mix
And
I swaddle all with lovingkindness for
All is bitter!
All is sweet!
All is Divine!
There is a moment that always surprises me, yet
I create room for the door or window to open
Every time I say Kaddish.*
I stand before The Holy One, Blessed be The One,
Chanting
Honey coated words of praise!
My mouth watering with each syllable that exits my lips
Each meridian of my body opens and
I tremble as
my hands open
my heart opens
my spirit body merges with The One
And
All flows through
All the ecstatic goodness
All the ecstatic sadness
Weave and swirl
Like a baked marbled cake
And
I am bound to the profundity of totality
Chanting
Rooted love of the
Holy One, Blessed be The One
Holding
The bittersweet Divine paradox of
Living
Mind Fully Engaged.
Blessings!
Sabrina
*an ancient praise poem said by Jewish mourners.
© Sabrina Sojourner 2020